Journal Entry – XI

I've been contemplating upgrading my subscription to the Pro plan, mainly for the feature. The ability to upload photos would be great, but it is the possibility of using it to create a photo blog that has me interested.

A photo blog without the distraction of social media elements and ads seems very interesting to me. I don't want “like” buttons, or to a lesser extent comments. I just want a place to share photos. I guess what I'm really trying to do, is to find a way to stop sharing photos on Instagram and instead share photos on a place that I can control. I'm basically trying to find a way to stop wanting to use Instagram. I've been successful with quitting Facebook, but unfortunately Instagram still has a hold on me.

I don't know if it can be done with or even if there is value in doing so. If I share photos on my own photo blog, will other people even find the photos? But hold on, this thing where I say, “will other people even find it?” To me it sounds like I want people to find my photos. Why is that? Maybe so I can get likes? Sounds like I'm addicted to the likes I get on Instagram.

Part of the reason I like sharing on Instagram is because I find other people who share the same interests as me. The connection though is shallow, that is it all amounts to a “like”. What am I really getting out of that? Isn't it just some form of digital dopamine? Digital drugs? After they liked my photo, they most likely scrolled past it in less than 5 seconds. I know, because I do the same thing when I “like” other people's photos. I see the photo, I think it's nice, I double-tap to “like” it then I'm off scrolling once again to find another one to like. On and on I go like a mindless robot. Thankfully Instagram warns me when I've caught up on all the new photos on my feed, which is the main reason I tolerate Instagram's feed. When I see that warning, I somehow find the strength to stop scrolling.

When I sat down to write tonight, I didn't even know what to write. Turns out I just did a brain dump and the conclusion I'm seeing here is, I have some work to do because I'm still freaking addicted to Instagram.

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